"I dunno"
September 25th, 2025
im not one to really vent publicly but i am just so saddened by a lot of things happening. Ive been like thinking of the good times ive had with this one ex friend. and i really wish they didnt go down the road they did because i miss who they were, or who i thought they were. very talented artist and has so much potential. theyre not mentally well and makes bad choices, it doesnt help that the people they surround themself with just condone and support the behavior. i feel bad for how i handled things, but if i said anything i felt like i wouldve been put on a shitlist, which i dont want ppl to hate me so i just kept following them and didnt try to talk to them because they made me uncomfortable, and many others as well. i just hope at some point they can become healthier, because the coping mechanisms theyre doing isnt good. but also i cannot ignore the unforgivable actions that theyve done and so i didnt want to be around them anymore. i was worried ab blocking them too because again.. they would notice and probably talk ab me. but i know it was gonna end shitty no matter what
its just so worrying how much they changed, which that happens i know.. but all i really wanted was to be their friend but it felt like all they cared about was this new person they met and sort of disregarded all of us. liek they were such and inspiration to me and i would talk about how we were so alike and i genuinley enjoyed their company when it was just me and bro talking. i dunno i probably sound so stupid right now. people change for either the better or the worst. its not like i havent talked to them before about all of this, i expressed my worries and what i didnt like, they seemed to understand, then complain behind my back or do nothing to help the behavior. which i guess im sort of over now. still sucks tho. im just worried that the things they are normalizing will effect the people around them, like the coping mechanisms and the very... weird sexual interests. which if youre into something out of the ordinary thats COOL but please lets not normalize saying this stuff in front of impressionable people, it can hurt them.
anyways, that was my whole thing.. if theyre reading this then thats fine, i just hope you can get healthier and find peace.